{"id":1869,"date":"2006-01-19T01:16:02","date_gmt":"2006-01-18T23:16:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mummila.net\/marginaali\/?p=1869"},"modified":"2006-01-19T01:16:02","modified_gmt":"2006-01-18T23:16:02","slug":"neiti-nukku-maija-bring-me-a-dream-nowi-said-now-god-damn-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/2006\/01\/19\/neiti-nukku-maija-bring-me-a-dream-nowi-said-now-god-damn-it\/","title":{"rendered":"Neiti Nukku-Maija: bring me a dream. Now. I said now, god damn it!"},"content":{"rendered":"

Olen kulu\u00advan vii\u00adkon aika\u00adna ilmei\u00adses\u00adti siir\u00adty\u00adnyt tal\u00adviu\u00adni\u00adryt\u00admiin, kun yksi\u00adtois\u00adta tun\u00adtia unta tun\u00adtuu her\u00e4\u00adtes\u00ads\u00e4 aivan lii\u00adan v\u00e4h\u00e4l\u00adt\u00e4, eik\u00e4 kah\u00adden\u00adnen\u00adtois\u00adta j\u00e4l\u00adkeen her\u00e4\u00adtes\u00ads\u00e4 ole p\u00f6k\u00adke\u00adl\u00f6 olo niin kuin aiem\u00admin, syk\u00adsyl\u00adl\u00e4, jol\u00adloin 8-10 tun\u00adtia riit\u00adti ihan hyvin.
\nYksi yli\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4\u00adr\u00e4i\u00adnen tun\u00adti<\/a> ei n\u00e4h\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4s\u00adti rii\u00adt\u00e4 minul\u00adle. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Huo\u00admi\u00adnen psy\u00adkiat\u00adriai\u00adka ahdis\u00adtaa, vaik\u00adka sain sen taas kah\u00addek\u00adsi\u00adtois\u00adta, kuten aina. Olin jo kuvi\u00adtel\u00adlut, ett\u00e4 olen sen suh\u00adteen sii\u00adt\u00e4 p\u00e4\u00e4s\u00adsyt, mut\u00adta sama van\u00adha kier\u00adre toi\u00admii n\u00e4k\u00f6\u00adj\u00e4\u00e4n yh\u00e4: ahdis\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adnen l\u00e4h\u00adtee k\u00e4yn\u00adtiin edel\u00adli\u00adse\u00adn\u00e4 p\u00e4i\u00adv\u00e4\u00adn\u00e4 juu\u00adri tuo\u00adhon nuk\u00adku\u00admaan\u00adme\u00adnoon liit\u00adty\u00advien aja\u00adtus\u00adten takia, sil\u00adl\u00e4 se, ett\u00e4 seu\u00adraa\u00adva\u00adna p\u00e4i\u00adv\u00e4\u00adn\u00e4 on olta\u00adva jos\u00adsain johon\u00adkin tiet\u00adtyyn aikaan, edel\u00adlyt\u00adt\u00e4\u00e4 sit\u00e4, ett\u00e4 on her\u00e4t\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4 ennen sit\u00e4, ja jot\u00adta her\u00e4i\u00adsi, on men\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4 illal\u00adla nuk\u00adku\u00admaan, enk\u00e4 min\u00e4 halua men\u00adn\u00e4 nuk\u00adku\u00admaan. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Oikeas\u00adtaan min\u00e4 en kos\u00adkaan halua men\u00adn\u00e4 nuk\u00adku\u00admaan. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Sil\u00adloin, kun min\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n tuom\u00admoi\u00adsen syyn takia ei ole pak\u00adko, se nuk\u00adku\u00admaan\u00adme\u00adno tapah\u00adtuu aina lopul\u00adta jon\u00adkin\u00adlai\u00adsen lie\u00adv\u00e4n masen\u00adnuk\u00adsen val\u00adlas\u00adsa, ja sil\u00adloin, kun on joku syy, se tun\u00adtuu vihat\u00adta\u00adval\u00adta, kat\u00adke\u00adral\u00adta, ep\u00e4\u00adrei\u00adlul\u00adta. #<\/a><\/p>\n

En\u00e4\u00e4 pit\u00adkiin aikoi\u00adhin ei ole ollut mit\u00e4\u00e4n syy\u00adt\u00e4, jon\u00adka vuok\u00adsi haluai\u00adsin huo\u00admi\u00adsen tule\u00advan nopeam\u00admin. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Kun uni\u00adryt\u00admi\u00adni vuo\u00adsia sit\u00adten hajo\u00adsi ensim\u00adm\u00e4is\u00adt\u00e4 ker\u00adtaa, pake\u00adnin tule\u00advaa aamua siir\u00adt\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4l\u00adl\u00e4 kel\u00adloa. K\u00e4\u00e4n\u00adsin y\u00f6kol\u00admel\u00adta kel\u00adloa takai\u00adsin\u00adp\u00e4in, jon\u00adne\u00adkin edel\u00adli\u00adseen ilta\u00adkuu\u00adteen, ja uskot\u00adte\u00adlin itsel\u00adle\u00adni, ett\u00e4 el\u00e4n sit\u00e4 aikaa. Se toi\u00admi\u00adkin. Tie\u00adten\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n aamul\u00adla alka\u00adnut kou\u00adlu ei siir\u00adty\u00adnyt min\u00adne\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n, mut\u00adta enh\u00e4n min\u00e4 sii\u00adt\u00e4 pii\u00adtan\u00adnut. Elin omaa aikaa\u00adni. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Tai sit\u00adten yri\u00adtin oikais\u00adta uni\u00adryt\u00admi\u00e4\u00adni tyy\u00adpil\u00adli\u00adsil\u00adl\u00e4 puos\u00adka\u00adri\u00adnel\u00adkeil\u00adl\u00e4\u00adni (minul\u00adla on nii\u00adt\u00e4 pus\u00adsil\u00adli\u00adnen), eli val\u00advo\u00admal\u00adla l\u00e4pi y\u00f6n<\/a> ja mene\u00adm\u00e4l\u00adl\u00e4 sit\u00adten kou\u00adluun. Sen j\u00e4l\u00adkeen aina uni mait\u00adtoi kyl\u00adl\u00e4 ja ryt\u00admi saat\u00adtoi\u00adkin oie\u00adta p\u00e4i\u00adv\u00e4k\u00adsi tai parik\u00adsi. Tai sit\u00adten ei. En oikeas\u00adtaan muis\u00adta pal\u00adjoa\u00adkaan sii\u00adt\u00e4. #<\/a><\/p>\n

No, nyt nuk\u00adku\u00admaan. #<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Olen kulu\u00advan vii\u00adkon aika\u00adna ilmei\u00adses\u00adti siir\u00adty\u00adnyt tal\u00adviu\u00adni\u00adryt\u00admiin, kun yksi\u00adtois\u00adta tun\u00adtia unta tun\u00adtuu her\u00e4\u00adtes\u00ads\u00e4 aivan lii\u00adan v\u00e4h\u00e4l\u00adt\u00e4, eik\u00e4 kah\u00adden\u00adnen\u00adtois\u00adta j\u00e4l\u00adkeen her\u00e4\u00adtes\u00ads\u00e4 ole p\u00f6k\u00adke\u00adl\u00f6 olo niin kuin aiem\u00admin, syk\u00adsyl\u00adl\u00e4, jol\u00adloin 8-10 tun\u00adtia riit\u00adti ihan hyvin. Yksi yli\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4\u00adr\u00e4i\u00adnen tun\u00adti ei n\u00e4h\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4s\u00adti rii\u00adt\u00e4 minul\u00adle. # Huo\u00admi\u00adnen psy\u00adkiat\u00adriai\u00adka ahdis\u00adtaa, vaik\u00adka sain sen taas kah\u00addek\u00adsi\u00adtois\u00adta, kuten aina. Olin jo kuvi\u00adtel\u00adlut, ett\u00e4 olen sen [\u2026]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wp_typography_post_enhancements_disabled":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11444],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1869","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-merkinnat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1869","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1869"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1869\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1869"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1869"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1869"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}