{"id":2818,"date":"2007-08-19T19:39:04","date_gmt":"2007-08-19T16:39:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/2007\/08\/19\/omana-itsena-oleminen\/"},"modified":"2010-09-06T12:43:01","modified_gmt":"2010-09-06T09:43:01","slug":"omana-itsena-oleminen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/2007\/08\/19\/omana-itsena-oleminen\/","title":{"rendered":"Omana itsen\u00e4 oleminen"},"content":{"rendered":"

Minul\u00adla on nel\u00adj\u00e4 var\u00adsi\u00adnais\u00adta oma\u00adna itse\u00adn\u00e4\u00adni ole\u00admi\u00adsen astet\u00adta ja nii\u00adden lis\u00e4k\u00adsi yksi ult\u00adra-aste. Nel\u00adj\u00e4 var\u00adsi\u00adnais\u00adta astet\u00adta j\u00e4r\u00adjes\u00adtyk\u00adses\u00ads\u00e4 vah\u00advim\u00admas\u00adta hei\u00adkoim\u00adpaan, siis v\u00e4hi\u00adten oma\u00adna itse\u00adn\u00e4\u00adni ole\u00admi\u00adseen, val\u00adlit\u00adse\u00advat sil\u00adloin kun: #<\/a><\/p>\n

    \n
  1. Olen yksin.<\/li>\n
  2. Olen yhden luo\u00adte\u00adtun seurassa.<\/li>\n
  3. Olen per\u00adheen parissa.<\/li>\n
  4. Olen vie\u00adrai\u00adden parissa.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    Vii\u00admei\u00adsen koh\u00addan vie\u00adrai\u00adsiin lukeu\u00adtu\u00advat kaik\u00adki muut kuin ensim\u00adm\u00e4i\u00adsis\u00ads\u00e4 kol\u00admes\u00adsa koh\u00addas\u00adsa mai\u00adni\u00adtut ihmi\u00adset. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Sai\u00adraan\u00adhoi\u00adta\u00adjan kans\u00adsa jut\u00adte\u00adlu<\/a> ei suo\u00adraan sovi yhteen\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n nois\u00adta loke\u00adrois\u00adta. Se on t\u00e4l\u00adl\u00e4 het\u00adkel\u00adl\u00e4 enim\u00adm\u00e4k\u00adseen jotain kol\u00adman\u00adnen ja nel\u00adj\u00e4n\u00adnen v\u00e4lil\u00adt\u00e4, ja samal\u00adla het\u00adkit\u00adt\u00e4in my\u00f6s jotain ensim\u00adm\u00e4i\u00adsen ja toi\u00adsen v\u00e4lil\u00adt\u00e4. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    On v\u00e4h\u00e4n omi\u00adtuis\u00adta, miten yri\u00adtyk\u00adse\u00adni olla omaa itse\u00e4\u00adni siel\u00adl\u00e4 k\u00e4\u00e4n\u00adty\u00adv\u00e4t itse\u00ad\u00e4\u00e4n vas\u00adtaan: mit\u00e4 enem\u00adm\u00e4n puhun itses\u00adt\u00e4\u00adni ja omis\u00adta asiois\u00adta\u00adni, sit\u00e4 vie\u00adraam\u00admal\u00adta se kaik\u00adki minus\u00adta tun\u00adtuu. En min\u00e4 taval\u00adli\u00adses\u00adti puhu itses\u00adt\u00e4\u00adni ja omis\u00adta asiois\u00adta\u00adni juu\u00adri mit\u00e4\u00e4n, en edes yll\u00e4\u00adole\u00advan astei\u00adkon kak\u00adkos\u00adta\u00adsol\u00adla. Kaik\u00adki sanal\u00adlis\u00adta\u00admis\u00adyri\u00adtyk\u00adset tun\u00adtu\u00advat syn\u00adnyt\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4n vain jon\u00adkin\u00adlai\u00adsia olki\u00adnuk\u00adke\u00adja<\/a> joko tah\u00adto\u00admat\u00adta\u00adni tai sit\u00adten jon\u00adkin tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00admat\u00adto\u00adman vai\u00adku\u00adtuk\u00adses\u00adta. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Kir\u00adjoit\u00adta\u00admi\u00adsen suh\u00adteen tilan\u00adne on osin toi\u00adsen\u00adlai\u00adnen. Jos\u00adtain syys\u00adt\u00e4 kir\u00adjoit\u00adtaes\u00adsa\u00adni itses\u00adt\u00e4\u00adni tai omis\u00adta asiois\u00adta\u00adni ei tun\u00adne olki\u00adnuk\u00adkien luo\u00admi\u00adses\u00adta ole yht\u00e4 vah\u00adva kuin puhues\u00adsa\u00adni. Ehk\u00e4 se joh\u00adtuu vain sii\u00adt\u00e4 yksin\u00adker\u00adtai\u00adses\u00adta syys\u00adt\u00e4, ett\u00e4 puhues\u00adsa\u00adni\u00adkin tun\u00adnen tar\u00advet\u00adta olla joh\u00addon\u00admu\u00adkai\u00adnen, mut\u00adta en ole riit\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4n hyv\u00e4 puhu\u00adja sit\u00e4 tar\u00advet\u00adta toteut\u00adtaak\u00adse\u00adni. Sanon v\u00e4\u00e4\u00adri\u00e4 asioi\u00adta tai oikei\u00adta asioi\u00adta v\u00e4\u00e4\u00adril\u00adl\u00e4 tavoil\u00adla, en huo\u00admaa tai osaa kor\u00adja\u00adta vir\u00adhei\u00adt\u00e4\u00adni riit\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4n suju\u00advas\u00adti, ja ajau\u00addun siten hel\u00adpos\u00adti sivu\u00adrai\u00adteil\u00adle tai puhu\u00admaan jopa t\u00e4y\u00adsin per\u00e4t\u00adt\u00f6\u00admi\u00e4. Kir\u00adjoit\u00adtaes\u00adsa\u00adni voin rau\u00adhas\u00adsa kor\u00adja\u00adta ep\u00e4\u00adjoh\u00addon\u00admu\u00adkai\u00adsuu\u00adte\u00adni ennen kuin pai\u00adnan jul\u00adkai\u00adsu\u00adnap\u00adpia. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    T\u00e4m\u00e4 kaik\u00adki nojau\u00adtuu tie\u00adtys\u00adti lii\u00adan vah\u00advas\u00adti ihan\u00adteel\u00adli\u00adseen k\u00e4si\u00adtyk\u00adseen itses\u00adt\u00e4, joka ei kos\u00adkaan ole ep\u00e4\u00adjoh\u00addon\u00admu\u00adkai\u00adnen. Osin sik\u00adsi\u00adkin luu\u00adlen, ett\u00e4 kaik\u00adkein omim\u00adpa\u00adna pit\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00adni min\u00e4 itse oli\u00adsi t\u00e4y\u00adsin vail\u00adla sano\u00adja ja var\u00adsin\u00adkin tapo\u00adja sanal\u00adlis\u00adtaa se. Vie\u00adl\u00e4 joi\u00adtain vuo\u00adsia sit\u00adten olin sit\u00e4 miel\u00adt\u00e4, ett\u00e4 jos sisim\u00adp\u00e4\u00adni oli\u00adsi pak\u00adko pukea \u00e4\u00e4n\u00adteik\u00adsi, se oli\u00adsi silk\u00adkaa tus\u00adkan\u00adhuu\u00adtoa, mut\u00adta en\u00e4\u00e4 min\u00e4 en onnek\u00adsi tun\u00adne niin\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n. Omin min\u00e4\u00adni on palan\u00adnut hil\u00adjai\u00adsuu\u00adteen, jota se oli ollut luul\u00adta\u00advas\u00adti jo hyvin kau\u00adan ennen tuo\u00adta jak\u00adsoa. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Oma\u00adna itse\u00adn\u00e4\u00adni ole\u00admi\u00adsen ult\u00adra-asteek\u00adsi nimi\u00adt\u00e4n sit\u00e4 tilaa, jos\u00adsa tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00adma\u00adton lak\u00adkaa vai\u00adkut\u00adta\u00admas\u00adta, ja olen vain taval\u00adli\u00adses\u00adti sen var\u00adjoon j\u00e4\u00e4\u00adnei\u00adt\u00e4 ker\u00adrok\u00adsia. Se onkin mie\u00adlen\u00adkiin\u00adtoi\u00adnen tila, sil\u00adl\u00e4 se on saman\u00adai\u00adkai\u00adses\u00adti kieh\u00adto\u00adva ja pelot\u00adta\u00adva. Yleen\u00ads\u00e4 sen pelot\u00adta\u00advuus on vah\u00advem\u00adpaa kuin kieh\u00adto\u00advuus, ja sik\u00adsi min\u00e4 p\u00e4\u00e4\u00adasias\u00adsa v\u00e4lt\u00adte\u00adlen sit\u00e4. Eri\u00adtyi\u00adsen pelot\u00adta\u00advaa on sen pal\u00adjas\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adnen muil\u00adle ihmi\u00adsil\u00adle. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Puo\u00adleen\u00adsa\u00adve\u00adt\u00e4\u00advin\u00adt\u00e4 sii\u00adn\u00e4 taas on se, ett\u00e4 luul\u00adta\u00advas\u00adti sii\u00adn\u00e4 tun\u00adnen kaik\u00adkein vah\u00advim\u00admin ole\u00adva\u00adni oma itse\u00adni. Sik\u00adsi nimi\u00adt\u00e4n\u00adkin sit\u00e4 t\u00e4s\u00ads\u00e4 ult\u00adra-asteek\u00adsi, sil\u00adl\u00e4 se sijoit\u00adtui\u00adsi yll\u00e4\u00adole\u00advas\u00adsa astei\u00adkos\u00adsa ykk\u00f6s\u00adta\u00adson yl\u00e4\u00adpuo\u00adlel\u00adle. Sii\u00adt\u00e4 tus\u00adkas\u00adta huo\u00adli\u00admat\u00adta, jota masen\u00adnus aiheut\u00adtaa, olen toi\u00adsaal\u00adta alus\u00adta asti rakas\u00adta\u00adnut t\u00e4t\u00e4 kipua ja sen aiheut\u00adta\u00adjaa, kos\u00adka ne ovat tuot\u00adta\u00adneet minul\u00adle n\u00e4i\u00adt\u00e4 ult\u00adra\u00adta\u00adson koke\u00admuk\u00adsia. Luet\u00adkin t\u00e4s\u00ads\u00e4 par\u00adhail\u00adlaan intii\u00admein\u00adt\u00e4 pal\u00adjas\u00adtus\u00adta, jon\u00adka maso\u00adkis\u00adti voi itses\u00adt\u00e4\u00e4n teh\u00add\u00e4. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    T\u00e4m\u00e4n alku\u00adkan\u00adtai\u00adsen minuu\u00adden esiin\u00adtuo\u00admi\u00adseen on tie\u00adtys\u00adti mui\u00adta\u00adkin tei\u00adt\u00e4 kuin masen\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adnen ja sii\u00adt\u00e4 saa\u00adta\u00adva psyyk\u00adki\u00adnen kipu. P\u00e4ih\u00adteet ovat kei\u00adnois\u00adta var\u00admaan\u00adkin se tun\u00adne\u00adtuin ja ilmei\u00adsin. Toi\u00adnen ovat \u00e4\u00e4rim\u00adm\u00e4i\u00adset koke\u00admuk\u00adset, jol\u00adlai\u00adsia oli\u00adsi\u00advat esi\u00admer\u00adkik\u00adsi eri\u00adlai\u00adsiin onnet\u00adto\u00admuuk\u00adsiin jou\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adset, mut\u00adta joi\u00adta on jo kau\u00adan voi\u00adnut hank\u00adkia para\u00addok\u00adsaa\u00adli\u00adses\u00adti my\u00f6s t\u00e4y\u00adsin tur\u00adval\u00adli\u00adses\u00adti: huvi\u00adpuis\u00adto\u00adjen<\/a> pelon\u00adtun\u00adnet\u00adta tuot\u00adta\u00advien lait\u00adtei\u00adde\u00adnEnglan\u00adnin k\u00e4sit\u00adteel\u00adl\u00e4 thrill ride<\/span> ei tai\u00adda olla var\u00adsi\u00adnais\u00adta suo\u00admen\u00adkie\u00adlis\u00adt\u00e4 vas\u00adti\u00adnet\u00adta. vie\u00adh\u00e4\u00adtys selit\u00adty\u00adnee ehk\u00e4 juu\u00adri sil\u00adl\u00e4 vai\u00adku\u00adtuk\u00adsel\u00adla, ett\u00e4 toi\u00admies\u00adsaan se pakot\u00adtaa ihmi\u00adses\u00adt\u00e4 tie\u00adtoi\u00adsen ulos j\u00e4t\u00adt\u00e4en j\u00e4l\u00adjel\u00adle vain joi\u00adden\u00adkin \u201calem\u00admik\u00adsi\u00adkin\u201d nimit\u00adt\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4t ker\u00adrok\u00adset. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    \"Jani<\/a> #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Min\u00e4 en ole kos\u00adkaan ollut eri\u00adtyi\u00adsen innos\u00adtu\u00adnut huvi\u00adpuis\u00adto\u00adjen n\u00e4is\u00adt\u00e4 lait\u00adteis\u00adta, isol\u00adta osin sik\u00adsi, ett\u00e4 monis\u00adsa niis\u00adt\u00e4 py\u00f6\u00adri\u00adt\u00e4\u00e4n, ja sen minus\u00adsa her\u00adk\u00e4s\u00adti aiheut\u00adta\u00adma fyy\u00adsi\u00adnen pahoin\u00advoin\u00adti\u00adsuus on vas\u00adten\u00admie\u00adli\u00adsim\u00adpi\u00e4 asioi\u00adta mit\u00e4 tie\u00add\u00e4n. Mut\u00adta muu\u00adtoin\u00adkaan n\u00e4i\u00adden lait\u00adtei\u00adden tuot\u00adta\u00admat el\u00e4\u00admyk\u00adset eiv\u00e4t ole minus\u00adta miel\u00adlyt\u00adt\u00e4\u00advi\u00e4 sik\u00adsi, ett\u00e4 huvi\u00adpuis\u00adtot ovat jul\u00adki\u00adsia paik\u00adko\u00adja ja kuten sanoin, kaik\u00adkein omim\u00adman itsen pal\u00adjas\u00adta\u00admi\u00adnen muil\u00adle on minus\u00adta pelot\u00adta\u00advaa. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Omim\u00adpa\u00adna itse\u00adn\u00e4\u00adni ole\u00admi\u00adsen tun\u00adne on kui\u00adten\u00adkin ilmei\u00adsen voi\u00adma\u00adkas, sil\u00adl\u00e4 k\u00e4vin kai\u00adkes\u00adta t\u00e4s\u00adt\u00e4 huo\u00adli\u00admat\u00adta\u00adkin lau\u00adan\u00adtai\u00adna Lin\u00adnan\u00adm\u00e4en<\/a> Rake\u00adtis\u00adsa<\/a>, joka on jo kau\u00adan hou\u00adku\u00adtel\u00adlut minua vah\u00advas\u00adti fal\u00adli\u00adsel\u00adla muo\u00addol\u00adlaan<\/del>. Sul\u00adki\u00adja\u00adli\u00adhak\u00adsen pet\u00adt\u00e4\u00admi\u00adnen oli n\u00e4in hil\u00adkul\u00adla<\/a> ja syl\u00adki tai\u00adsi pirs\u00adkah\u00adtaa hal\u00adlit\u00adse\u00admat\u00adto\u00admas\u00adti suus\u00adta alas\u00adtu\u00adlo\u00advai\u00adheen lopus\u00adsa, mut\u00adta muu\u00adten se meni ihan hyvin. #<\/a><\/p>\n

    Yl\u00f6s\u00adme\u00adno ei ollut l\u00e4hes\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n yht\u00e4 pahan tun\u00adtuis\u00adta kuin se ensim\u00adm\u00e4i\u00adnen alas\u00adtu\u00adlo, joka ei mat\u00adkus\u00adta\u00adjil\u00adle ollut\u00adkaan pelk\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4 vapaa\u00adta pudo\u00adtus\u00adta niin kuin olin olet\u00adta\u00adnut: olka\u00adp\u00e4\u00e4t puris\u00adtui\u00advat val\u00adjai\u00adden yl\u00e4\u00adosaan ja per\u00adse tun\u00adtui v\u00e4ki\u00adsin\u00adkin nouse\u00advan pen\u00adkis\u00adt\u00e4. Sii\u00adn\u00e4 vai\u00adhees\u00adsa luot\u00adta\u00admuk\u00adse\u00adni lait\u00adteen tur\u00adval\u00adli\u00adsuu\u00adteen oli men\u00adnyt\u00adt\u00e4 yhdes\u00ads\u00e4 tie\u00adtoi\u00adsuu\u00adden kans\u00adsa, ja juu\u00adri seh\u00e4n oli tie\u00adtys\u00adti tar\u00adkoi\u00adtus\u00adkin. #<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

    Minul\u00adla on nel\u00adj\u00e4 var\u00adsi\u00adnais\u00adta oma\u00adna itse\u00adn\u00e4\u00adni ole\u00admi\u00adsen astet\u00adta ja nii\u00adden lis\u00e4k\u00adsi yksi ultra-aste.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wp_typography_post_enhancements_disabled":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11444],"tags":[1986],"class_list":["post-2818","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-merkinnat","tag-psykologia"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2818","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2818"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2818\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14457,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2818\/revisions\/14457"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2818"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2818"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2818"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}