{"id":6396,"date":"2008-02-15T17:28:13","date_gmt":"2008-02-15T14:28:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mummila.net\/perithorio\/2008\/02\/15\/51\/"},"modified":"2010-06-29T21:55:09","modified_gmt":"2010-06-29T18:55:09","slug":"ahdistukseni-on-suojakeino","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/2008\/02\/15\/ahdistukseni-on-suojakeino\/","title":{"rendered":"Hahmotin t\u00e4n\u00e4\u00e4n ahdistukseni ensimm\u00e4ist\u00e4 kertaa ikin\u00e4 mitenk\u00e4\u00e4n"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hah\u00admo\u00adtin t\u00e4n\u00e4\u00e4n hoi\u00adta\u00adjan luo\u00adna ahdis\u00adtuk\u00adse\u00adni ensim\u00adm\u00e4is\u00adt\u00e4 ker\u00adtaa iki\u00adn\u00e4 miten\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n. T\u00e4t\u00e4 ennen en ole kyen\u00adnyt miten\u00adk\u00e4\u00e4n selit\u00adt\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4n sen ilmes\u00adty\u00admis\u00adt\u00e4 sil\u00adloin, kun se el\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4\u00adni ilmes\u00adtyi, enk\u00e4 sen vie\u00adl\u00e4 nykyi\u00adsin\u00adkin var\u00adsin\u00adkin eri\u00adlais\u00adten aika\u00adra\u00adjo\u00adjen yhtey\u00addes\u00ads\u00e4 ilme\u00adne\u00admi\u00adsen syy\u00adt\u00e4. T\u00e4n\u00e4\u00e4n tajusin sen kes\u00adkus\u00adte\u00adlun kulues\u00adsa yht\u00e4k\u00adki\u00e4, ja sii\u00adn\u00e4 samal\u00adla tulin lopul\u00adta\u00adkin my\u00f6s ymm\u00e4r\u00adt\u00e4\u00adneek\u00adsi sen, mik\u00adsi n\u00e4is\u00adt\u00e4 h\u00e4i\u00adri\u00f6is\u00adt\u00e4 puhu\u00adtaan alan ihmis\u00adten suul\u00adla usein suo\u00adja\u00adkei\u00adno\u00adna, mik\u00e4 on t\u00e4t\u00e4 ennen jopa \u00e4rsyt\u00adt\u00e4\u00adnyt minua, kos\u00adka en ole tajun\u00adnut mit\u00e4 sil\u00adl\u00e4 tar\u00adkoi\u00adte\u00adtaan. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Oival\u00adluk\u00adse\u00adni joh\u00adtui sii\u00adt\u00e4, ett\u00e4 halusin koros\u00adtaa sit\u00e4, ett\u00e4 pidin (vie\u00adl\u00e4 het\u00adke\u00e4 ennen oival\u00adlus\u00adta) ahdis\u00adtuk\u00adse\u00adni liit\u00adty\u00admis\u00adt\u00e4 itsel\u00adle\u00adni aset\u00adta\u00admii\u00adni vaa\u00adti\u00admuk\u00adsiin ep\u00e4\u00adto\u00adden\u00adn\u00e4\u00adk\u00f6i\u00adse\u00adn\u00e4, kos\u00adka olen ollut yht\u00e4 vaa\u00adti\u00adva itse\u00e4\u00adni koh\u00adtaan niin kau\u00adan kuin muis\u00adtan, mut\u00adta ahdis\u00adtus tuli el\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4\u00adni vas\u00adta suh\u00adteel\u00adli\u00adsen my\u00f6\u00adh\u00e4\u00e4n, ja muut\u00adtui suh\u00adteel\u00adli\u00adsen lyhyes\u00ads\u00e4 ajas\u00adsa ole\u00admat\u00adto\u00admas\u00adta (ylit\u00adse\u00adp\u00e4\u00e4s\u00adt\u00e4\u00adv\u00e4s\u00adt\u00e4) vai\u00adkeak\u00adsi ja lopul\u00adta inva\u00adli\u00addi\u00adsoi\u00advak\u00adsi. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Ahdis\u00adtuk\u00adse\u00adni ilmes\u00adty\u00admi\u00adsen \u00e4kil\u00adli\u00adsyyt\u00adt\u00e4 hoi\u00adta\u00adjal\u00adle selit\u00adt\u00e4es\u00ads\u00e4\u00adni mie\u00adlee\u00adni juo\u00adlah\u00adti, ett\u00e4 itse asias\u00adsa ahdis\u00adtuk\u00adse\u00adni on suo\u00adja\u00adkei\u00adno. Vaik\u00adka en sit\u00e4 sil\u00adloin vie\u00adl\u00e4 tajun\u00adnut tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00adval\u00adla tasol\u00adla \u2014 vaik\u00adka en siis kos\u00adkaan t\u00e4t\u00e4 ennen ollut sit\u00e4 t\u00e4y\u00adsin tajun\u00adnut \u2014 jokin oman ajat\u00adte\u00adlu\u00adky\u00adky\u00adni taso oli havain\u00adnut, ett\u00e4 nyt, enem\u00adm\u00e4n kuin kos\u00adkaan ennen, on mah\u00addol\u00adlis\u00adta, ett\u00e4 alan ep\u00e4\u00adon\u00adnis\u00adtua omien anka\u00adrien vaa\u00adti\u00admuk\u00adsie\u00adni t\u00e4yt\u00adt\u00e4\u00admi\u00adses\u00ads\u00e4. #<\/a><\/p>\n

Ahdis\u00adtus oli t\u00e4m\u00e4n tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00admat\u00adto\u00adman tason kei\u00adno varoit\u00adtaa minua t\u00e4m\u00e4n ske\u00adnaa\u00adrion toteu\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adses\u00adta. Tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00adma\u00adton pyr\u00adki siis h\u00e4lyt\u00adt\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4n, kos\u00adka oli havain\u00adnut sen, kuin\u00adka hen\u00adki\u00adset voi\u00adma\u00adva\u00adra\u00adni oli sii\u00adn\u00e4 el\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4n\u00adti\u00adlan\u00adtees\u00adsa ajet\u00adtu niin lop\u00adpuun, etten en\u00e4\u00e4 nii\u00adden varas\u00adsa pys\u00adtyi\u00adsi pit\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4n sii\u00adhen saak\u00adka val\u00adlin\u00adnut\u00adta min\u00e4\u00adku\u00advaa\u00adni kasas\u00adsa. Lyhyes\u00adti sanot\u00adtu\u00adna tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00adma\u00adton ep\u00e4\u00adon\u00adnis\u00adtu\u00admi\u00adsen pel\u00adko kas\u00advoi niin suu\u00adrek\u00adsi, etten kyen\u00adnyt en\u00e4\u00e4 edes yrit\u00adt\u00e4\u00adm\u00e4\u00e4n mit\u00e4\u00e4n. #<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ahdis\u00adtuk\u00adse\u00adni on suo\u00adja\u00adkei\u00adno. Vaik\u00adka en sit\u00e4 sil\u00adloin vie\u00adl\u00e4 tajun\u00adnut tie\u00addos\u00adta\u00adval\u00adla tasol\u00adla, jokin taso oli havain\u00adnut, ett\u00e4 nyt, enem\u00adm\u00e4n kuin kos\u00adkaan ennen, on mah\u00addol\u00adlis\u00adta, ett\u00e4 alan ep\u00e4\u00adon\u00adnis\u00adtua omien anka\u00adrien vaa\u00adti\u00admuk\u00adsie\u00adni t\u00e4ytt\u00e4misess\u00e4.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wp_typography_post_enhancements_disabled":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11444],"tags":[96,115],"class_list":["post-6396","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-merkinnat","tag-ahdistuneisuus","tag-ajattelu","series-perithorio"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6396","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6396"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6396\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13348,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6396\/revisions\/13348"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6396"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6396"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mummila.net\/marginaali\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6396"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}